There are times that I feel absolutely alone. I’m surrounded by people all the time, and somehow I feel absolutely alone. Sometimes I wonder if it’s because the one person that I want to see me just isn’t looking anymore. When do we say enough is enough and put ourselves first? I’ve been putting everyone else before me my whole life and I’m starting to get tired of it. I always do what others want and trying to make them happy, and for what? So I can sit on the sidelines and feel like garbage when because I’m forgotten about? I fail to see how that’s karmically justifiable.
Is it wrong of me to ask for attention? Perhaps even affection? I don’t want it from a stranger, just that special someone. I wish that person that ice spent the last 10 years with would see me the way they saw me at the beginning. So I guess I wish they just saw me, maybe even let me know I exist to them. I’m tired of being taken for granted. It’s just not working for me anymore. I’m a mother to my two children, I don’t want to be his mother too. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just delusional.